Every week, we collect anonymous entries sent in using the link on our sidebar and post them all on Monday. We post anything as long as it doesn't contain personal attacks or hate speech. Feel free to submit your thoughts and questions :)Just got back from DC Pride with a bunch of Dukies. Simply epic. Pride is a cathartic and comforting showing of solidarity in a country that seems to want nothing to do with "others." Having said that, I have never felt more pale and out of shape in my life.
Anyhow. I think I've hijacked the blog enough this week, so I'm just going to get to the anonymous posts.
#1
Right now nothing is more difficult than figuring out whether I also like men or whether I'm just trying to distract myself from other issues in my life. It used to come and go in high school, so upon entering college I chalked my feelings up to teenage angst. But these days I'm starting to feel that way regularly and I know I'm much more on top of things than I was as a high schooler. To be frank, I'm completely petrified at the idea of approaching another man, let alone telling close friends or family members. I like to think of myself as a guy who doesn't care what other people think of him, but I know the things some of my friends say and I can't help but wonder whether they'd ever feel like they could act like themselves around me. And why am I even thinking about coming out? I'm not even sure if I'm being honest with myself at this point.
And just like that, Zealots by the Fugees came up on iTunes and I feel better for the time being. Thank you for bearing with my rant. May you all haunt MCs like Mephistopheles. That's a reference to the song I'm listening to, in case I just confused everyone.
#1.5
Follow up to my post (had The Fugees song): Clearly I'm a true hipster. I want people to think I have good taste in music even when I'm anonymous :P
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3 comments:
Hey #1 (and 1.5 :D), ditto to what Summer said. I think it's really important to start thinking about this.
I know this might not be what you're looking for...but I think this is really normal. If it helps, I still think about all of these sames issues-("how do people feel around me?" or "are they acting differently?")-and I'm out. So that is something to keep in mind..that's it a process you have to work at. And I wouldn't get down on yourself about questioning this either-I once had a friend tell me that "you can't judge how you feel", because that's just where you are right now. I tried CAPS and I'd really recommend it if you're in an area where you can do that. (See right hand link on the blog.) I'm sure people in this community would also be more than happy to help you. Good luck!! =)
Questioning is AWESOME!!!! I always question myself and I've been out as gay for 5 years now. I still wonder if I should re-classify myself as bisexual or if I can even claim a gay identity without claiming a male identity. These are wonderful things that shouldn't frustrate you so much. I completely understand the pressures of society to fit yourself immediately into a box and to never budge from it, but this is simply just not logical. Welcome your questioning and use it as an opportunity to further learn more about yourself and who you are.
ur here, ur queer. get used to/over it.
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